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All right. So I've gotten some comments, and I want to address them. Unfortunately, I can't see who sent them, so I cannot address you by screen name.

First, about the fact that a shooting star is not, in fact, a star: I am aware of that. I said (Duh, it's a STAR) because it is commonly called a shooting star, and I took it from the name. Thank you for the link and pointing that out.

And about Wuthering Heights: It may just be my opinion of them (keep in mind that I am not done yet. I am at page 153 of this old, old paperback edition), but I do think that Cathy is just screwing everything up with her melodramatics--why would she ACCEPT to marry Linton if she KNOWS she won't love him as much as Heathcliff?? Yes, convenience, knowing she wouldn't ever be allowed to marry Heathcliff, but REALLY. She shows up and says "I love Heathcliff. And I just agreed to marry Linton." and then later throws fits over how her husband "treats" her--Sigh. You can't see me, but I'm rolling my eyes. She's just screwing everything up.

Heathcliff? He's evil. Just an all-around nasty person.

Linton is a wimp, completely and utterly. He refuses to stand up to Heathcliff on his own.

Hareton is being corrupted by Heathcliff.

Catherine's brother (I always forget his name--Hindley?) is an a$$hole with a superiority complex.

Joseph is a bigot.

Sorry if I made any enemies with this. These are just my impressions of the characters, and I'm not done the book. But first impressions are a kicker, aren't they? I like the book itself. I just find its characters not very likeable. I think the book's interesting because of it.

Not much is new. I got (one second, let me count...) 3 new books yesterday. City of Bones, by Cassandra Clare, Peeps, by Scott Westerfield, and The Host, by Stephenie Meyer (also known as the amazing, incredible, fabulous�author who brought us Twilight). In addition to that, my mother's friend who borrowed Twilight from me returned it yesterday, so now I have that to read too. It has been a while since I've been this happy.

Bye for now!

~Annabel

08:30 - Dev Portal is down again.� I found the disk issues showing up again and these things boot off SAN.� It's a little weird that this would show up on this machine just prior to the cutover.� Slick reminded me that Texoma was the original target for our cutover test and then we switched at the last minute to mage.� That narrowed it down to the prep work for the DMX cutover.� The two servers that have had prepwork done are having issues, nothing else is.� We're trying to get Margie on the phone now.

09:15 - Still looking for Margie.� After we take care of this I'm going to migrate the Dev Pres stripe over to LDAP authentication against apollo.

-- I added a 2nd monitor (19") to my personal desktop this weekend.� Now my work area looks like a spaceship cockpit with 4 monitors and 2 keyboards.� I rule.

-- By the way, I want to note that on 7/3 the Developers were told to point their CVS repositories to the CVS VIP or risk the loss of CVS access when I decomm Frodo.� I also need to note that Kratos needs a disk space increase on the CVS slice or we're going to have a real problem when everyone moves over there.� My fucking hands are tied with all this ESX remediation though, I can't do anything to expand that disk until we allocate it for them all.� What a fucking nightmare.

- Do Clarity

�1:00 - We had Margie pull that LUN she added to texoma and rebooted.� FS was corrupt so we had to manually fsck.� A couple of fucked up inodes on the /var partition were attached to lost+found, but since its var, that's nothing critical.� We bounced the server & it appears to be back to normal.

- Most of the time eaten here was trying to locate Margie.

- Started the LDAP rollout on PAN.� Files updated, rebooting the server now to see how things go.� Hoppy & Hoops in ST group chat.

I didn't do much again today. My blood sugars are all over the place. I left the readings with the nurse and they did get the blood test results but I haven't heard from the doctor yet.

My moods bad. I am really annoyed very easily. I think I have a lot of anxiety.� I am going to see the doctor tomorrow to see if they can give me something to help.�

I am staring to clean my room and get rid of crap I don't use. I called Joan at work and got her voice mail and let her know I am planning on going to work in one week and then called and told helen at work. SO...nothing more to report.� I still can't find my braclet?? I still haven't heard the final word on the car yet either.

Whoo. It's been quite a week.

I came on mostly to write about the new things that happened to me in the last few days.

Ok, so #1: I jumped off a 10 metre diving board. Can you say adrenaline rush? I was hyperventilating for 20 minutes after. So here's how it happened:

I'm taking a lifesaving course in the morning for this last week and next week. It's fun. I know some of the stuff already, but some is new. Our exam is next Friday afternoon. We were told that for our exam, we have to be able to jump off the 5 metre diving board for this compact jump thing (it's�a way to get to a victim in water if you're jumping from high up). So our instructor let us practice on Friday. We all did the 5 with no problem (I love doing it. Why? Ask the madwoman that is my inner self). Then our instructor let us play around on the boards. There are two 3 metres, one 5 metre, and a 10 metre. Only three people chose to go off the ten: my friend Katherine, a girl named Bronte and another girl (who landed with her arms flat--OUCH!). Everyone else was on the 5 and 3s. So everything's wrapping up, and I'm the only one left who wants to go. I ask my instructor to go one more time and he says sure, because we're early anyways. So I start climbing up.. and up.. and up. I had only planned to go on the 5, but made one of those stupid spur-of-the-moment decisions that make me so charming (). So I keep climbing, all the way up to the 10. By the time I get up there, I'm shaking and hyperventilating (there were gaps between the steps and you could see ALL the way down). I was grabbing the handrail for dear life right after I passed the 5.

So there I am, on the very highest open platform intended for jumping I have ever been on. I was still shaking. I was questioning my sanity. I swear to God that I was considering telling my parents to institutionalise me--once I got down. Which was my immediate problem. The kicker is, I had a huge, huge audience. All the swimming lessons had just finished, so all the kids, their teachers, my lifesaving class, the other one, the lifeguards, and the parents were watching me. And calling encouragement up to me. Which created an incredible amount of pressure. There were several counts of "Ok, Anna, on 3, jump! One... two... three!" with no response from or effect upon me. I debated just climbing back down the stairs, but since I'm as stubborn as all�hell and the demons therein, I refused to let myself. So I stepped up to the edge, crossed myself, and jumped. The one thought I remember having? "Sh*t. This is SO New Moon." Typical me. I flew. I fell. I hit the water, which didn't hurt at all, surprisingly. And the crazy rush made it worth the fear. Againagainagain!!

New thing numero dos: I saw a firefly for the first time. Why is this pivotal? Because it's a freaking firefly. I never even believed they existed until I saw one, due to the fact that it just seemed so improbable. Honestly: bugs with lights on their rears? Oh yeah. They live with the green-spotted unicorn in my backyard. It was so pretty. It felt like a movie--the only other place I'd ever seen one before. But what they tell you in the movies are wrong: their lights do not look like those charming incandescent lamps. Nope. Halogen all the way. It looked like the new Christmas lights my parents bought�last year. That's really ok, though. A firefly!... I'm going to be incredulous over that one for a while.

And lastly, but importantly, my first shooting star. I didn't even think those existed either. But I happened to be looking up last night at my friend's country house when we were on her boat on the lake, and I was the only one who saw it. It was beautiful. Gorgeous. Otherworldly (duh. It's a star.) . But seriously, one of the prettiest things I've ever seen. What did I wish for? Lo siento. Can't say. That would ruin it, wouldn't it? But anyone who knows me well would know. Tant pis pour moi. It really is the thing I want most, though....

So there're the Amazing Adventures of Annabel the Awesome (haha, I just wanted another A-word in there). Haha, my life is so boring. I actually just wrote a journal entry about seeing my first firefly. Heehee. I'm pathetic.

Book suggestion: Wuthering Heights, by Emily Bronte. If only to complain with me about how loathesome all the characters are. Honestly. Good book, though.

Goodbye for now!

ok well today was really not so great. I didn't feel good almost all day. My stomach was hurting all through church. I didn't do much today.� So there is really not much to write.

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hi i'm back again seem long time since i was on here so i thought i'd bring you up to speed my son has now fully recovered from his op and finished his physio at long last and now vanity has kicked in he now has contact lenses instead of glasses . He looks so strange to me without them as he has worn them from the age of three .At least he's happy with them more than i can say with the bill to pay lol .once again my other half lost his job this time it was the boss who went bust and that left us up the creek without a paddle but three weeks later he found a new job closer to home and we are back on the straight and narrow . thank god for that , all the work is finally done in the house and it looks lovley even if i do say so my self lol .as for the bordom it's still the same can't get used to not working i feel like i should be out there doing something with my life but ill health still an issue always will be so heres to more boring days . that s enough of me for now see you all later

Another day.� It went well.� But I got diarrhea around 1am then again later in the day...what the heck is causing it?

Last night I took the liquid and pill sleep med. I was really tired this morn when I woke up.

I still can't find my favorite braclet.� Dad looked everywhere and he believes he gave it back to me...which is great. I have NO idea what I did with it.

Dad cooked some chicken wings and there were great..but they didn't want to really stay down. Prob to hard on my stomach.� I was going to go to the movies with Kelly but I couldn't keep things down.� I told Kelly about it and he could care less.

So I was on the phone with Steve about my car and kelly kept calling. When I called Kelly back he starts yelling at me. WTF? So I didn't go to the movies.� Kelly really pissed me off!

Steve said he has to tear the transmission apart...which will cost a lot...but he said he will work with me because he knows I couldn't afford it since I have been on medical leave for the last two months.� So he will let me pay half and then some more in a month. that was really nice of him...how many people do that. He is a great mechanic and has known my dad a long time.� There are some nice people left in life...can you believe it?

I went in the pool today at dad's. It was soooo warm. Felt good. The heater was up. I stuck my hurt knee in the hot tub which felt better after. I didn't get much sun...like I thought I did. Thank God I didn't get burnt.

Why is it that my "friends" don't want to hang if I don't feel well or I am sick? And now that I am losing weight--and I don't want to go out to eat all the time...people act different to me?� Now food's not the main part of life--I don't live for food.� I am annoyed by the way they are acting. It's like they are not the people I thought they were.� (SIGH)

USA (channel) has law n order marthon. YEAH!! I love that show. But I will have to turn the TV off sooner or later. LOL

Well my sugar is high right now and I am feeling blah.� I think I will try to get some sleep soon.� Dad and I are going to go to church tomorrow.� Well I am done on here for now.